Yesterday, suddenly I felt very strong fear...

I couldn't sleep at previous night and today, I couldn't move at all in the evening.

I was alone at our sweet home and it was before 3 hours more before DAVID's coming back.

My both hands were benumbed and shivering so cold with fear or another reasons, anyway my body felt something wrong for sure.

But I don't have a phone and I don't know where is he and how to call an ambulance here in U.S.A.

I said to myself, "Don't be panic! I'm sure of to recover soon by myself."

I remembered DAVID's favorite phase, "Keiko...You are OKAY. Don't worry , I love you." like he says to me so often...

I remembered his LOVE and I concentrated all my senses of whole body, I tried to just observe at ease...

I crawled to bed and lay down and I used a YOGA's breath.

Naturally the shivering will disappeared and I felt relaxed better than before.

Then I fall asleep deeply about half of an hour, but 2 hours more still remain until DAVID's coming back.

I felt myself is not my body, I could very slowly as a turtle.

But I confirmed the worst condition was over...

Before sleep, I remembered that I promised to Mom to talk by SKYPE.

I sent a message quickly not to let her worry about me and ask her to talk again for the next week.

Jet lag or my sleepless at night caused by this unbelievable happening ,I guess.

Only DAVID, I can rely on now...

I don't want him worry about him so much.

I want to be a person to support with him from inside.

I don't want to be a burden for him at all.

Until his coming home, I tried to move a little more and I checked my face at mirror.

How terrible!

If I showed my smile to DAVID, he could penetrate into my fake smile soon...

I decided to tell him about everything honestly.

As soon as he returned at home, he noticed my wrong condition at a glance.

I am so relived to see his face and I told my happenings.

I cried and cried like a child ,but everything he carefully listened to me and made me laugh easily.

In addition to my happening, I was so surprised that he experienced a tough inside of his heart through this training.

He told his wonderful and great story little by little.

We influenced to each other so much, and we felt something special to own self each today.

But we managed to survive from it by own, and we could smile again together!!

We shared our deep hearts as a soul mate, and we said to good bye for today and went to get ready for tomorrow...

His deep sleeping breath let me happy.

We survived to each situation at proper process by own, and we realized how we need and love each other...

To keep my balance and to adjust at each situation even if it was disgusting, these are important subjects for me in SEATTLE.

I got a learning a lot today...

テーマ:気付き・・・そして学び - ジャンル:心と身体

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Masuda Keiko (増田佳子)

Author:Masuda Keiko (増田佳子)
YOGA=生きる道であり、"How to"でもある…。

Vegitarian・Holistic&Natural cure&Detoxが、各々の心と身体の調和と平安に役立てるツールとなりうると、自らの体験や学びを通じて日々実感中…。


YOGA, Detox adviser , Aroma therapy, Natural therapist by my foot technique, Vipassana meditation, and Vegetarian cooking based on Macrobiotics...

These are my tools for others in this world to share with me.

I recommend eating Vegetarian foods as a daily diet to keep our body & mind & spirit balanced in peace at neutral state always through my experience.

My learning & experiences can make use of other's interest & welln-vbeing somehow, I hope...

If you are interest in my activity,
please let me know and send me some message.

I believe that my mission of this life is contribution to let this universe be peaceful more and better after each mind, body and spirit balanced by my tools with benevolence...,from the bottom of my heart.












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