Oh, my GOD!
Today I got a sad new about my grandmother in JAPAN.

She is in a hospital because she felt a pain of her body a few days ago.

My Dad's mother is my grandmother and she is going to be 97 years old this July of this year.

She took care for us when we are young and I really love her.

Today Dad and his brother & sisters will get together to discuss my grandmother's treatment.

For them, my grandmother is their mother and everyone want her to live longer as long as possible.

But she is getting older and older and now her body has a problem.

I am thinking of her now and I pray for her mind & heart in peace at the hospital.

When I was in Japan in 2014, it was the last time to see my grandmother before I moved to Seattle in the U.S.A.

And I could hear of her condition from my MOM & DAD a little through e-mail messages and only what I can do for her long life without problem.

I think that "Time has come for my grandmother." anyway, only GOD knows what happens to her from now on.

David & I wish that my grandmother has no more pain of her body and feel at ease at the hospital.

I was really taken care of by my grandmother when I was a kid and my heart is tore and rendering about her situation now.

I am not a doctor and if I visit her in Japan as soon as possible, I would have nothing to do her.

But my heart is screaming how I can do for her during my grandmother is alive.

Life is too short to look back and only GOD knows our limitation of life.

I have no idea what will happen to us tomorrow and only I wish for my dear grandmother's heart in peace in her bed from Seattle.

To my dear grandmother, I cannot do anything for her even she loves me so much and she looked after me when I was a kid.

And I feel so much helpless & worthless to her disease and I need to be patient to feel bad & sad for her.

Just I pray for her mind in peace and she can sleep without pain today anyway.

In this world, there are so many absurdity & irrational in our life that we have to handle & manage with our strength & hope.

Anyway I am looking for cheaper flight to see my grandmother as soon as possible from today.

But to support DAVID is my job and I really want to support him beside of him.

I chose to live in Seattle with DAVID and sometimes I have to give up happening in JAPAN because I chose to live here.

And right now, David looks need my support and I am only his wife to be able to support him as a best partner!

Mom always says to me, "You cannot help it in the U.S.A," or "There is nothing you can do in the U.S.A." ("Shouganai" in Japanese.)

So just I need to watch and protect her from Seattle to pray for her peaceful heart in the bed...

Only praying for her let myself hopeless & worthless now but I have no choice for my dear grandmother right now, anyway...><

I was too much thinking of my grandmother and my stomach feel bad now....so I need to release my tension of myself to sleep well tonight.
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