Today is the end of February and 2 months of 2017 has passed already in this year!
How fast time goes by, I can feel the speed of time these days...
And 2 days ago, it was NEW MOON day!
David & I wrote our affirmation of NEW MOON in the morning yesterday together to make our mind clear in our life.
On New Moon, it is the best timing to make our affirmation like a prayer on a paper.
After we wrote it, I know everything will make happen actually sooner or later as this universe flow so just we release our prayers to the sky.
Yesterday it was raining & snowing all day long but today we can enjoy beautiful blue sky & sunshine again.
With clouds, the temperature was not so low but today it was very chilly because of this beautiful weather.
In Seattle, most days are cloudy or rain in every winter so sometimes we cannot enjoy sunshine with heavy clouds.
Weather forecast says that only today is nice weather but after today it will be rainy day again for the rest of this week.
Anyway today is the final day of February and tomorrow will start March!!
So I want to cherish today as I am with hope & positive feeling to connect with March tomorrow.
Our meditation time & walking together make us be calm & peace with LOVE every day and I am very thankful our Blessing.
We have everything which we need to live today and I have no worries about out future at all.
Because I know that all our affirmation of New Moon will bring us at our BEST life with universe guide little by little as we wish...
So I am doing my best every single day as I am.
How is your final day of February??
I wish that you can enjoy today with smile to connect with the begging of March with hope & positive mood tomorrow, anyway!!!
Today, I asked David to bring my "Japanese Embassy"in Settle.
Because next month, my 10 years' passport will be expired soon so I want to renewal it before the expired day.
Last Friday, we went to Japanese Embassy already but I forgot old my passport unfortunately.
I thought that my passport in my leather case but it was not in there so my CARELESS part came up again.
But David didn't get angry about my careless and I tried to renewal without old passport.
I have to report "LOST" somewhere if I want to renewal my passport without old one and I have to go to the police station to report it.
But David didn't want me to get involved any police trouble so we decided to go Japanese Embassy again today before his afternoon work.
Today it was snowing again but our moving time was very nice not to get in traffic jam at all..
David dropped me in front of the building of Japanese Embassy and I went there alone at this time.
During my process of renewal of my passport, David tried to park his car in downtown Seattle.
I finished all my process and I will get new passport next Monday, it is very quickly.!!
And fortunately David could park his car and we looked around downtown Seattle together for a while.
It was snowing still before noon and PIKE PLACE MARKET was not so much people that today is Monday with snow.
We had a nice time together there and I am so thankful for David's support today, too.
Yesterday was David's birthday and today is 2nd day of his new age.
I wish that he will enjoy NEW AGE to welcome new age next year every single day with smile & peace as much as possible.
To get my renewal passport was very easy process and I am looking forward to getting it soon!^^
In this afternoon, huge hail dropped from the sky suddenly...so I am very longing for warm spring day by day...><
Today is David's birthday and I gave my card for him after he woke up because I wrote it yesterday to surprise him.
In the midnight, after the date changed, I told David, "Happy Birthday!" when I woke up to pee.
He was almost sleeping at that time but he understood what I said to him.
And after he woke up today, he read my birthday card and he looked so happy to read my message.
I am so happy to know that that his new age from today is just a new page of his long life from now on.
For him, before his birthday seems a little sensitive but today he looks calm and stable than before.
He went to take a walk with his close friend and I hope that they will have a nice time together even in snow today.
I want to surprise him by my cooking at home so I will do my best for him at home now...
I don't know how big someone has a meaning of birthday but for me, I don't feel so much special about birthday.
To thank for my life is a little special meaning for my birthday, not to be celebrated so many presents or many happy messages for me are not my favorite way to have my birthday.
But most people want to celebrate with happy birthday message or many presents to feel self special.
If we can celebrate every day as special as today is, we don't need too much feel special for birthday, I think.
Anyway, I am so thankful for David's existence and I am very lucky to be with David not only today's his birthday but also every single day.
How is your way of thinking of birthday??
Am I strange of thinking about birthday???^^
Tomorrow is David's birthday.
For me, birthday is just another day of yesterday, but for David, birthday is something special and unusual.
So today, David tells me, "This is the final ～ before my birthday." whenever he did something as daily as he does.
I have no idea how special he feels the day before his birthday today.
But just I am watching and protecting his actions and words without judgement.
And I observe how he feels today and think before his tomorrow's birthday, anyway.
Also tomorrow is NEW MOON day and it let David feel more special than usual, I guess.
David took a holiday tomorrow to enjoy his birthday as he wants to do anything to celebrate new age.
He got his friend's calling yesterday and they are going to take a walk together early morning tomorrow.
I know his friend and I want David to enjoy the time to walk together tomorrow without me.
But he looks thinking so much after we woke up today that his face suddenly stopped to think something.
I told David, "Don't overthink today, O.K.??" and he smiled at me.
But he looks thinking again anyway so I tried to let him do as he is today.
I made rice bolls for his lunch and I said to him,"This is FINAL ONIGIRI (rice balls) the day before your birthday!!" and he laughed at me.
Every day is someone's birthday or death anniversary so I don't mind too much about birthday and death anniversary.
Anyway, I want David to enjoy his birthday tomorrow as he wants because only 1 day for his birthday a year.
So I am looking forward to check his behavior today and tomorrow with unconditional love.
If he gets older like 70,80 or 90 years old in the future, I will love him as he is...so my love doesn't matter to getting older than before, I believe.
Today it is cold and I am so looking forward to welcoming warm spring day by day...^^
Today, David is holiday and he wanted me to go somewhere special with his secret.
A few days ago, David told me today's surprise visit downtown Seattle and I wonder where we would go today.
David took me "Northwest Flower & Garden Show" at the Washington state convention center in downtown Seattle.
There were many people there and the flower & garden show was so huge area to walk around.
A few days ago, David met a customer and he talked to him friendly as usual as he does to all his customers.
And he talked David about this Flower & Garden show and he gave a free ticket with generosity.
So David wanted me to keep going there secretly and we could enjoy there together.
There were so many booths to look around and we kept walking more than 2 hours.
It was so much fun for us that we really enjoyed this show together today.
Anyway David's love was so great that his secret visit to this show was just his love for me.
He wanted me to enjoy something new and special because I did so many things last 5 weeks to support a woman.
And his kind support and generous love always give me wonderful energy to move on with strength & tough mind from now on.
I am so lucky to be with David that we are happy with love and smile every single day.
I am so thankful for David's love that I want to cherish our love from now on and forever!!^^
In this morning, I woke up at 5:20 after my good sleeping.
I felt nice energy inside of myself to feel new of my mind with positive energy naturally.
I am so happy that I can feel so much energy inside today, because I cried yesterday somehow.
And then, I can feel so much pure energy inside and I can feel "I can move on as I am from now on with David's love!"
Love is huge encouragement to move on my next step to let myself be as I am.
And my heart is filled with gratitude and benevolence and I can feel to do anything as I wish from now on.
How was I born in this world??
I don't remember but I imagined that I started to cry when I was born in this world for the first time.
Someday, I will say good bye to this world with smile and I want to enjoy next trip of my spirit with hope again.
To live and to die is very common in this world and many birth and death happen today all the time on this earth.
Fortunately, I am alive with smile & peace today so I am very thankful for my life...A LOT!
How are you today??
I hope that you can enjoy your new day with smile & love as you are,.
Because today is only 1 day of our life, isn't it??
So let's enjoy today with new your heart to connect with your new day tomorrow, shall we??
To live today is not taken for granted at all, living today is BLESSING for us with great lucky...I think!!^^
Suddenly tears came out of my eye a lot after our meditation time in this morning.
Last few days, I was thinking a lot in my mind and something needs to pull out of my heart with tears.
After our meditation as our usual routine, David and I sat down to share with each feeling and thinking.
He looked worrying about me and I said to him with my honest feeling and naturally my tears flew down to my face.
David told me so much great words to accept my feeling and to encourage my thought with love and strong passion.
I needed to pull out of my feeling honestly and frankly and I needed to cry anyway, and I felt clearer than before after that.
David needed to leave home for work and he always treated me so well with love and compassion.
His love is always tender and gentle and it covered my feeling with warm & comfortable atmosphere.
And I could smile for him before he left home because I could feel better than before.
I needed to express how I feel today with tears and David's love let my tears go away naturally.
Tears can make my heart purify and energize little by little and just I want to start my house working.
Today is very beautiful day with sunshine and blue sky and I have no bad feeling in my heart anymore.
With David's love and my tough heart, we can survive this world with love from now on.
We need each love and support and we are very great team to live together, I realized how much we love each other.
Anyway I am so thankful for David's love always that I can laugh and cry anytime with his love & generous heart as much as I want.^^
Last 5 weeks, I supported to cook for a lady who has a serious disease at her home twice a week.
I wanted to support her as long as possible but her mind suddenly changed and my support finished unfortunately.
It was her choice and I did my best for her every visit and I have no regret for my support at all.
I want her to feel comfortable and peace as well as possible and if she doesn't need my support anymore, I want to respect her thinking.
I feel just gratitude for her and her husband to give me this opportunity with my support anyway.
And David & I are so glad that we could see her and her husband because they gave us great life experience.
I have no regret of my support for her because I can tell that I did my best as much as possible.
And David supported me during his holidays so much and I really appreciate with his love and support for me.
I wanted to keep my support for her but her decision looks firm and I don't bother her life anymore by my feeling for her anymore.
Only what I can do for her is praying for her recovery and peace in her mind without so much pain inside of my heart.
Because I love her so much and I want her to live as long as possible.
Her disease and her husband's support for her will keep from now on at home, so just David & I pray for their peaceful day with benevolence.
If she doesn't need my support anymore, I just want to cherish her way of living with peace & love for my heart.
So I have to move on my life with strength & toughness of my mind with David.
Last 5 weeks of my support for her gave me so much learning and experience and I want to keep my mind in peace & love for my next step.
Nothing will happen in my life to make me learn, I believe.
And GOD will guide me to next my stage as I wish and I want to keep doing my best every single day.^^
Today is Presidents day in the U.S.A and it is holiday to pay respect to past presidents who served this country.
So most people take a holiday today and most banks and schools take holiday.
But I am not so familiar with this holiday that I have a normal day for me.
At our apartments, today looks quiet and calm like Sunday because today is holiday.
Today, it is raining a little outside, so David and I gave up taking a walk after our meditation time.
With rain, we can walk together with raincoat but today we didn't go for walking.
In the U.S.A., national holidays are less than Japan.
So some holidays looks so precious for American, I can feel.
A few days ago, I got organic cacao nibs at our favorite supermarket.
It is made by organic cacao beans and they are roasted and looks chocolate chips.
So today I made a banana cake with cacao nibs for David's snack.
All ingredients are organic and everything mixed so nice that I could make nice banana cup cake finally.
David will love this taste because cacao nibs will let David taste like a chocolate chips inside the cake.
Cacao nibs are not sweet at all but the texture is crunchy and nice flavor of cacao beans.
I really love this cacao nibs and I want to arrange for other sweets to use it for David again!!^^
To sleep well at night is most important to keep our body & mind at healthy condition.
Even we eat healthy organic vegetarian foods, we cannot keep our healthy body & mind without good sleeping.
So I want David to sleep well & enough every night with peace.
But sometimes, David cannot come back to home early and he came back to home late at night these days.
Because he started to work newly from this month and now he is trained many different kinds of schedule to learn of working day by day.
So sometimes I wait for David's coming back to home later than usual my sleeping time.
But my desire of sleeping strike me so strong that I couldn't wait to keep awake sometimes.
I am so sorry that I cannot wait for his back at home but he never complain about it and he always tells me "Please sleep if you want without waiting."
But I want to wait for his coming back if I can.
To keep awake until midnight is not good for our body at all and we can not feel comfortable of body & mind next morning after less sleeping.
So I realize how important & essential part of our well-being is made by sleeping well every night.
How is your SUNDAY today??
How do you feel today??
I hope that you can feel nice energy with peace after enough sleep last night.^^
Author:Masuda Keiko (増田佳子)
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