Today is Halloween day.
This is a tradition of the Celts in Ireland around B.C 5.
They used a unique calendar which on 31th October is the end and 1st November is the first day of their year...
And this season was thought that the borderline between DEATH and ALIVE would become to decrease...
So the habit of the Celt offered foods outside of house to the ghosts, departed soul and the spirits from the world of DEATH.
I didn't know the tradition in detail at all.
In Seattle, many houses & shops are decorated with beautiful wreaths and Jack-o-Lantern, and Pumpkins became a star anywhere!!
I love pumpkin so much, so I got a nice sweet pumpkin.
It is organic ,so it's taste is so thick and very sweet like DAVID!!
It looks like a Japanese taste and similar color... it tastes sooooooo sweet and delicious!!
Every day, I use the Pumpkin for meals but American size was too big.
1 week ago, about 5Kg of it ,I got one pumpkin but it still remain...
I tried to use it as a dip ,salad, sweets ...I cooked it for baked ,roasted and boiled...
Day by day, the big pumpkin became less...
David loves the taste so much, and he wants to eat more and to buy again.
I asked to him not to buy before it's over, please...
Today, I wonder how nice the city at Halloween day in Seattle.
I am not a kid anymore... so I can't get any sweets after knocking the neighborhoods' door.
How is your Halloween day??
I wish you have a nice time today...
I hope you can welcome November as your new day of the Celt calender...
Here is in Seattle so cold , now it's not autumn anymore it's like a winter already!!
Please take care of yourself in cold season...and enjoy your life!!!
Happiness is not "to be" ,just "to be conscious" inside of us.
Happiness can easily recognize in daily life if you try to find it.
Many people often says "I want to be happy." or "I want happiness" ,but happiness doesn't exist and it is impossible to see.
I think happiness which is just the state as your heart can feel.
So if just we carefully were conscious about how I am now ,you could feel happy as your mind and heart.
Sometimes happiness can form as some materials, like money ,house ,car, clothes ,jewelry and foods, but all of them are illusion.
Because it can't promise to give your eternal happiness and they need to change or take care if you wanted to keep them.
But in our mind if you could be conscious the state of happiness every day, you are always happiness forever...
How do you feel happy?
When do you feel happiness from the bottom of your heart??
What are you doing when you feel happy??
Who does let you feel happy??
The state of happiness seems so flexible, but it doesn't so...I guess.
If you feel comfortable with someone, the person let you feel happy.
And if you feel fun & pleasure what you do, your doing it bring you happiness.
If you feel satisfied to be yourself ,you are eternally happy in your mind always.
To feel happiness looks easy but sometimes something disturb your heart by lots of surroundings in daily life.
But if you tried to find your happiness in your life, you may be able to be conscious
so many findings by yourself...
Just please use all of your own senses inside & outside, happiness can easily feel...I think.
David's brothers are living in Eastern Washington.
From here in EDMONDS city, it is far about 3-4 hours driving by car.
But his elder brother and his wife are so close to DAVID and I ,so I am so lucky to see them.
Because they love us and worry about us with their great LOVE always,so I don't feel any solitude at all.
And DAVID and his brother talk by phone sometimes ,so they have a nice relationship very much.
Especially ,his elder brother's wife, for me she is sister in law after our marriage, concern about our new marriage life after my arrival in SEATTLE.
And we exchanged some e-mails and I let her know how we are getting on now.
Only 2 times, we can not see each other in Seattle before, but I felt so much her LOVE for us.
And she is so kind and has a wonderful heart with benevolence to us, I really appreciate her and DAVID's brother.
For me, relationship between my sisters in JAPAN, now less e-mails and calling each other than DAVID's does in Seattle.
After growing up, brothers and sisters made their own life, I think it is natural that less conversation and connection than living together as a family.
Except special occasion, wedding or funeral etc..., our sister's doesn't concern about each life so often.
But DAVID's family are talking well by phone, and his parent's also talk to their sons very often.
I felt it so wonderful that family and brothers love each other so much and always they can commit each life and exchange a nice conversation.
David's family seems to cherish each other and they love so well , it looks like a natural.
Deep love for son from parents LOVE let their son grew up so much LOVE like DAVID.
Anyway...I really appreciate with DAVID's elder brother and his wife.
Her message of e-mails made me so relieved and taken at ease ,I appreciate her LOVE.
Not only our relationship of sister in law but also nice friend ,I want to know her more and better if possible.
And everyone has a different value and priority in each life, but as a just human beings we will be able to understand more with LOVE and compassion from now on.
LOVE energy of her is so comfortable for me and I feel her more than the real sister in JAPAN now...
The relationship doesn't matter what to connect each other and how to establish our new relationship after our marriage...
I want to thank you so much for her existence again and again...
We can see soon at Thanksgiving party in the end of November, it will come soon!!!
I always want to know and understand DAVID's family and friends more with LOVE and gratitude.
These are most important for me to live as my own pace.
Today, I want to pick up here only 1 from three.
To live simply means to buy less and to own as less as possible.
In this world ,so many materials filled with our life.
And we tend to think how much we have something important for our life.
In additon to, that our happiness seems to be relyed by the amount of things around us.
But the standard of happiness doesn't mean it at all, I think.
At first, (the minimum level of materials to live today may need but) it is the most important for me how we can feel happy as you are...
Any materials (money, house, car, clothes, electric goods ,foods...and so on) can not promise your eternal happiness.
They will decrease, get old and are changing as time goes by.
To get more or be old something, you may become to want more and to get new something more and better than before....
This type of desire doesn't reach to the end, it's endeless, not as far as you can notice this trick of human desire.(BON-NOU in JAPANESE)
I don't mean that to own things is bad , just you need to know how satisfaction you can feel as less materials as possible.
In Buddha's word, this is called by "TARU wo SIRU".
Taru means to feel enough, and Siru measns to know or understand.
The level of your satisfaction of it is different from others, countries, society, or religion...
So it doesn't compare to the other's how many things you own ,just you had better to recognize and decide to live simply.
After you buy something one ,I recommend tyou to throw away something one instead of new one.
If you don't throw away any materials at all, little by little ,lots of materials will fill with your surroundings.
It will be your disturb as usual life.
And you can may feel happiness how happy I can own ,but it is illusion,I think.
Things may fill your space ,but they can not fill your true heart completely...I guess.
Anyway...to live as I am, I want to live simply as possible.
So now I am trying to decide to own or to throw away as this nice timing in Seattle.
To throw away something is very comfortable for me to live simply.
Only my favorite things can feel happy enough, and I feel enough satisfaction now.
So I can easily to realize what I want to do in my life from the bottom of my heart.
David cut his hair shorter and he took his favorite salon.
The salon was fancy and refined so well and all staffs are tender.
I cut my hair sometimes after my hair like a monk style 6 years ago.
So I am so interested in beautician's cut technique ,they looks like a family or friends.
The time of DAVID's hair cut was so fun that I really enjoyed the time to share with them.
we got a organic foods after that, and we talked a lot for our new life & plan passionately.
For me this is the first and last GENUINE love and we felt so special and unique connection between us.
We always thank to GOD for our blessing and this miracle meeting.
And we enjoy every meal and talk a lot with honest and pure heart.
To love somebody so deeply was so AWESOME experience that I have never known before.
To love means to know each more and better.
To live with the best partner lead our life abundant and bright.
To live with the best lover can share every feelings and thought.
To be together brings me a just happiness and peace.
Love has a splendid power ,and I was moved to his overflowing LOVE and I often cry.
My tears with happiness and LOVE can not help loving him more...
Love is a such a extended world in peace ,I have never imagined before I meet DAVID.
Only our combination bring me upper state of happiness and Love.
I want to be the better person to deserve to love him.
Love is leaning a lot and finding a new myself...
Thank you for today, and I appreciated DAVID ...everything for me!!
Yesterday, suddenly I felt very strong fear...
I couldn't sleep at previous night and today, I couldn't move at all in the evening.
I was alone at our sweet home and it was before 3 hours more before DAVID's coming back.
My both hands were benumbed and shivering so cold with fear or another reasons, anyway my body felt something wrong for sure.
But I don't have a phone and I don't know where is he and how to call an ambulance here in U.S.A.
I said to myself, "Don't be panic! I'm sure of to recover soon by myself."
I remembered DAVID's favorite phase, "Keiko...You are OKAY. Don't worry , I love you." like he says to me so often...
I remembered his LOVE and I concentrated all my senses of whole body, I tried to just observe at ease...
I crawled to bed and lay down and I used a YOGA's breath.
Naturally the shivering will disappeared and I felt relaxed better than before.
Then I fall asleep deeply about half of an hour, but 2 hours more still remain until DAVID's coming back.
I felt myself is not my body, I could very slowly as a turtle.
But I confirmed the worst condition was over...
Before sleep, I remembered that I promised to Mom to talk by SKYPE.
I sent a message quickly not to let her worry about me and ask her to talk again for the next week.
Jet lag or my sleepless at night caused by this unbelievable happening ,I guess.
Only DAVID, I can rely on now...
I don't want him worry about him so much.
I want to be a person to support with him from inside.
I don't want to be a burden for him at all.
Until his coming home, I tried to move a little more and I checked my face at mirror.
If I showed my smile to DAVID, he could penetrate into my fake smile soon...
I decided to tell him about everything honestly.
As soon as he returned at home, he noticed my wrong condition at a glance.
I am so relived to see his face and I told my happenings.
I cried and cried like a child ,but everything he carefully listened to me and made me laugh easily.
In addition to my happening, I was so surprised that he experienced a tough inside of his heart through this training.
He told his wonderful and great story little by little.
We influenced to each other so much, and we felt something special to own self each today.
But we managed to survive from it by own, and we could smile again together!!
We shared our deep hearts as a soul mate, and we said to good bye for today and went to get ready for tomorrow...
His deep sleeping breath let me happy.
We survived to each situation at proper process by own, and we realized how we need and love each other...
To keep my balance and to adjust at each situation even if it was disgusting, these are important subjects for me in SEATTLE.
I got a learning a lot today...
Death is equal to all beings on this planet.
To get a new birth means to reach the death surely.
I don't be afraid of DEATH itself.
In Japan, "Heaven looks like a so wonderful place, because nobody didn't come back again from there."
It may sounds very fun and ironic way to say about death.
But maybe the existence of Heaven existence is after our DEATH, I just can imagine how beautiful world spread around there...
Or maybe the DEATH is just the end of myself ,and everything will be NOTHING after our body's death...
I don't know ,because I have never experienced the DEATH before.
But my grand grandmother died when I was a junior high school child , I could not understand the DEATH as a real meaning.
Just it happened suddenly until my sleeping time at midnight, just I was too surprised at her sudden death to feel about it anything.
Only 1 thing ,from her DEATH,I could learn by her death...
"Tomorrow is not sure of coming for everyone. So I need to seize the day today without any regret later."
I loved my grandmother so much, and her death was so beautiful.
Just because of natural death after getting old without no pain...it is ideal, isn't it?
And my grandfather died when I was a student of university.
In front of my grandmother, MOM and me, his death was coming so suddenly and silently.
Just what I could do for his the moment of death was to watch and protect the process...
No emotion and no thought could not feel at the very moment.
I couldn't cry at all after his death, I was too busy to going through his funeral smoothly...
But I could learn about DEATH again ,only 1 thing...
"I am sure of my DEATH in the future, so I don't want to regret at the time of my death.
I want to do my best today as possible until death..."
I was thinking so much after his death about...
"What is LIFE?"," What is DEATH as a real meaning?", and "How do I want to live truly from now on until my death?"
Death gave me a lot of opportunity to learn about a LIFE so deeply.
Every day, many births and deaths happen at single moment in this earth.
I want to live this day and do my best as much as possible with LOVE...now with DAVID together.
Until DEATH ,I can be alive with this my body and mind.
I really appreciate with this life!
Thank you so much for MOM and DAD...of course for grand grandmother, grandfather and grandmother...
And I want to thank for DAVID so much ,everything to me...
After arrival in Seattle ,fog was in the morning and cloud is in the afternoon...always.
I miss the SUN so much!!!
Today ,I finally can see the sunshine in the afternoon.
How warm the sunshine!
How tender the energy of SUN!!
In Seattle, from autumn to winter season it has a lot of cloudy and rainy days.
For every creature in this world, Nature and all kinds of animal , the energy of sun is necessary to live.
When we eat a food, it comes from the Sun's energy by origin...
The sun give us a origin of universal nutrition, it may call "LOVE" of Sun...
Today, I could feel very tender and gentle energy from SUN.
It was blessed by GOD...
(*GID doesn't mean some particular religion of GOD, for me...)
As doing YOGA, I just appreciate with GOD for everything.
If GOD didn't exist in SUN, we can live any longer.
We are not alive by myself, we are lived by something...I feel so.
I deeply appreciated with the existence of SUN, and the energy let me happy.
Happiness can easily find a daily finding.
LOVE of Sun made my mind so satisfy and keep my heart warm, of course the effect of my happiness caused by David, too.
If he were not be with me, how can I live ??
Someday...each body will need to return this earth when physical body's function is over.
Until then, we will be able to grow our LOVE more and inspire with each other in spiritual level than before with each efforts...
I want to grow up a better soul mate to deserve DAVID's love eternally.
In Seattle, we can get easily many kinds of organic foods.
They are very cheaper than in Japan, and all of them are so delicious.
And I think that organic foods in Seattle are very cheap than in Japan.
(But normal foods are more cheap but it contain with lots of chemical products & toxin to grow inside.)
To get and use organic foods seems to be expensive but it isn't as a result.
Because I can use organic foods of whole ,including skin and seed and root of vegetables & fruits.
So during my cooking, my garbage always becomes so less...no waste of organic foods.
In addition to, it tastes so wonderful!
The original taste of vegetables and fruits are so thick and deep as themselves have.
And a little amount of organic foods satisfy with our mind and body ,because they has s lot of nutrition and good & pure energy inside.
So we use a less seasoning to cook them and organic foods can make us happy and lead to healthier state of our body and soul, I feel so...
In Seattle ,many people are interested in health at higher level, so many products are often selling and consumers buy them.
Now I can get many kinds of organic foods easily and reasonable.
Of course ,grains ,mills ,beans and nuts can get here.
Japanese lives in Seattle a lot, so Japanese seasoning and foods can get, too.
I am so happy that I can eat organic apples here in this season.
In Japan, organic apple called a "miracle apple" and it is hard to eat.
To get nice and proper foods is very precious my priority to live.
Because "we are made by what we eat", as you know.
To get a nice and pure energy from all organic foods means make our body and mind in healthy state and protect our body from any disease.
Today, how many times I cried a lot with DAVID.
I was moved by his LOVE somehow...
His great love & deep understanding for me led my heart so overflowing...
Too much happiness and so wonderful LOVE from DAVID were overwhelmed me again and again.
I have never felt a unconditional LOVE before in my past.
I am so lucky to meet DAVID.
I am so happy to be his wife.
I want to grow up more to deserve to be loved by DAIVD.
I really want to love him more as possible...
A man & a woman have just difference between two of them.
Just try to understand much better about each difference, we can know more in deeper level.
I want to support him more inside of him.
I really want to make my efforts to learn about LOVE through marriage life.
How tremendous energy of LOVE has!
What a wonderful husband I got!
I want to learn about myself through this marriage life until death...
I have never experienced this happiness to share every single happenings between DAVID & me...
Anyway...I really happy to be with DAVID...
Thanks so much for everything.
As far as David is as he is...I can be just KEIKO as I am...
Author:Masuda Keiko (増田佳子)
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