After new moon day, today was our relative's funeral service.
She has fight more than 10 years against cancer and I could meet her at David's Mom's funeral service for the first time.
On 11th in this month, she passed away...
So today we went to Whidbey island to her funeral service with David's elder brother and his wife together.
It was in a public middle school and there are so many people to get together.
After about 1 hour of the ceremony, we started to talk to many David's old friends who know David's childhood.
For me, it was the first time to meet all of them today.
They looked so happy to see DAVID with me today that they haven't see each other for many years.
David introduced me to his friends and talked a lot and I just concentrated to listen to their story.
Anyway today's funeral service was very wonderful experience for me.
David & I thought a lot about the life of relative who passed away and our life & old friends after all of today's happening.
Her message was, "Miss me but let me go." and her message was so great for all of us that we need to live with her nice memories from now on.
I wish that her spirit will move on the next her new life without pain anymore.
And our life is going on with many happenings around us...anyway we are so thankful that today's funeral service to go through together, anyway...
Just I want to cherish our life as we are today and we survive this world with LOVE & COMPASSION from not on...^^
Today David& I woke up silent & calm with foggy weather on Christmas day.
I really love this quietness with peaceful atmosphere around us but David looked a little different from my mind.
But we started to meditate together as usual as our daily routine.
And we went to go walking together on Edmonds beach and we could see David's old friend couple unexpectedly.
Many people were walking on Christmas day and we really had a nice time to talk with his friends on the beach side.
I could talk his friend's wife for the first time but I really become to like her after we talked for a while.
And we started to walk again and we had a nice feeling each other.
So we started to our Christmas day together only for two of us and we could feel peace & calm inside of each mind.
Many shops and restaurants were closed and less people were on the town on Edmonds and I really like the quiet atmosphere.
And we had a nice talking together and our hearts could feel wonderful for our way of life style.
To gather family on Christmas day is usual but we really love to have each other today.
We don't feel any solitude and sorrow to being together today because we really have great LOVE & smile each other.
Every day is different from other days and not only for Christmas day but also each day is important for both of us.
This situation and our usual day will be our history of our marriage life day by day.
Only 1 week from today will be NEW YEAR...
So I wish that you will have wonderful days of 2016 to connect NEW YEAR soon with Blessing & LOVE as much as possible.
David & I stayed at Astoria in Oregon for celebration of David's birthday last night.
And we woke up in this morning with nice smile and we went to the lounge to have a coffee together.
We just started to talk a stranger spontaneously as usual as David.
And we talked more than 1 hour together just we met for the first time.
David & I could feel so much nice feelings of this couple and we exchanged each contact after our conversation.
David & he has a similar common experience in Alaska and we really had a nice talking A LOT anyway.
To talk new strangers can make our new friends easily and got great atmosphere together to start NEW DAY today!
And we came back to enjoy organic coffee to start new day for David at "Blue Scorcher Café" at Astoria again.
To start with new & great people with organic coffee can bring us a happy day today, too!
Anyway, I am so happy that David looks so happy that he can start with his new age from yesterday through this trip at Astoria in Oregon...^^
Travelling with David can bring us a refresh & new energy inside both of us anyway and I love trip with him...
And life is looks like "TRAVEL" of our spirit and we want to cherish our travel of our spirit together from now on!
Today is David's 56th birthday.
And he doesn't look different from yesterday's David at all for me.
But for David, before & after his birthday, he can feel something different from usual.
To cherish every single day as much as possible, every day is very special for me.
To enjoy THIS DAY as special as not being taken for granted, I can enjoy today with gratitude & benevolence with David.
He always love me with kindness & generosity and I am so thankful that I can feel so much love from him at anytime.
Especially he looks so happy that he became new age with LOVE & SMILE better than yesterday.
Last week, suddenly I decided to have a short trip in Oregon that I want to celebrate his birthday somehow.
And I found a nice staying place & a great organic bakery & café to bring him with my love.
After 3 hours & a half drive from our living place, we could find an organic bakery café "Blue Scorcher Bakery & Café" to take a rest for a while.
Around 14:00 in the afternoon, many customers were sitting to eat lunch menu there.
Great atmosphere of this café with friendly service, we really had a wonderful time with organic tea.
David really love bread and we got a nice organic bagguete for him.
Usually we eat organic brown rice as our meal but he really love bread.
To eat bread (gluten) so much is not good for our body and I don't want to take so much gluten with wheat at all.
But today is David's birthday and I want him to enjoy his favorite taste to celebrate something special.
Anyway, for me, birthday is not be celebrated with someone to express my gratitude for my life from my birth to today.
But for David, I want to express my gratitude & love for his existence & birth in this world so much.
Without him, I don't now how I can live from now on.
But to be with him, I can feel to do anything with his love for me & my love for him always & forever.
So just I am so thankful for his existence itself and I really want to say "THANK YOU FOR DAVID'S LIFE" today... A LOT!!^^
Life is like a journey of my sprit.
And I believe that my soul will never die after my body's function stop in this world.
Also I believe the reincarnation of our souls and our spirits cannot stop be alive at anywhere in this world.
This world is expanding at any single moment.
And this huge universe is unlimited existence and it is beyond our understanding.
But I can feel myself inside somehow through my body's sense every day.
Sometimes the sensation of body can support my spiritual feelings inside but sometimes it may disturb my pure sensation of my soul.
I cannot feel anything without my body's sensation and it is important to understand myself every day.
And the sensation can teach me how I feel inside constantly.
To keep my body & mind in peace & calm is my essential part of my life.
Because as YOGA's teaching says, our body is not ours and it needs to treat like a "HOLY SHRINE".
So I want to cook for David & myself each meal as our offerings to our sincere body & mind.
Without negative way of thinking & feelings, we can enjoy each time to offer our organic meals to ourselves.
And it is important time for both of us.
Today we started TODAY with sunshine after rainy & cloudy days after nice meditation time anyway.
To meditate with noble silence & peaceful self is bring us great energy inside, I am sure of it day by day.
Especially, I can feel so much energy with gratitude & benevolence and just I am so happy to have TODAY without any worries.
Our way of thinking can bring us REALITY sooner or later, so I throw all my negative things away somewhere.
Only my positive thought can bring my REALITY as I visualize and this RULE is completely true.
To believe or not, it is up to you.
But through my experience, I am learning this "RULE OF UNIVERSE" day by day.
So I just want to enjoy my spirit's journey of my body at this present moment.
And someday my soul will finish my travel in this world, and I won't regret anything in this world at that moment.
That's why I cherish this day with benevolence & gratitude without being taken today for granted.^^
I wish you will have a GREAT THIS DAY with your smile & love as much as you can...
BE HAPPY for all beings in this whole world!!^^
Life is a kind of journey to find "WHO I AM??" as a real meaning.
And maybe I cannot find the answer until my body die or after my death of body.
But I want to understand who I am actually anyway through my lifetime someday.
This whole body is not mine at all...I mean that my body is just borrowed to enjoy this life for a while.
And I believe that true myself is my soul & sprit of my body inside deeply.
Of course my soul & spirit cannot touch & show outside actually but I can feel inside of myself.
To do my YOGA practice & to focus on my breath during meditation, my mind is just feeling myself inside.
Of course my sense of body is decided by my mind of brain but something inside of myself is sure of existent...(It is difficult to express this sense with any words...><)
But YOGA & MEDITATION can bring me something depth of myself to feel holy & sincere self naturally.
And all my saying is just my feeling of my intuition inside and everyone may has different way of feeling about it.
These my habit of YOGA & MEDITATION are very helpful "TO BE SELF" as I am now.
I started to do my YOGA practice when I became 30 years old and my YOGA life keep myself feel at ease comfortably without other's way of thinking & feeling.
Before I started to do YOGA, I wasn't feel myself as "I AM" who I really want to be.
But thank to YOGA practice, I feel myself as "I AM" really more than before.
To find "WHO I AM??" is my homework in this life with DAVID and I don't explain it well not now.
But I am in the middle of the way to find it day by day.
"TO BE SELF" is essential part which I can understand "WHO I AM??" later, I guess.
So I am doing my best each day and keep my YOGA & MEDITATION every day as long as possible to find TRUE MYSELF in the future.
To be myself as I am is very important for me because it is my life and I am the main character of my life.
Not behave others who I am not as "I AM" actually is not wonderful to live own life.
When I was younger than 30 years old, I was very struggling about it.
These days, after more than 10 years of my YOGA practice, I can love myself as I am little by little thorough DAVID's love.
To love someone truly let me understand "WHO I AM?" to reflect his words & behaviors.
And it make me learn how I want to be & what I really want to do...so this love is my essential part of myself now.
Just "TO BE MYSELF" is not so easy for me that I keep looking for it every day as my own pace & way.
Someday I'd like to realize "WHO I AM?" as I am...and I believe in myself that I will be able to find it, for sure!!^^
After leaving David's cousins' home ,we travelled toward to Cannon beach on US highway 101.
It was along the Pacific ocean and the view was amazing.
Today, just a little bit it was raining & cloudy but we enjoyed the drive along the way to Cannon beach.
Lots of nature with tall trees & wide ocean makes us happy.
David booked a nice hotel which room is traditional & unique style.
Always he tried to treat me as well as possible.
His tenderness & kindness makes me so much happy and it makes my heart rendering at the same time...
I tried not to think about my departure soon ,but it is impossible...
We enjoyed being with DAVID, but suddenly my tears were overflowing.
I am happy now but we will be apart from each other after this stay here for 4 months again.
David talked me how we love each other deeply and we can see again soon.
And my heart became calm down little by little with his words & funny actions to stop my tears.
This stay at Cannon beach hotel means to getting closer to my departure.
But I love hims & he loves me, so we don't worry about our love at all.
Just we need to be patient for a while to get together again.
And just we need to enjoy this happiness now.
I realized how I really love DAVID, he is the best partner for me.
And I hope I am the worth person to be loved by him better than before.
No more tears each other, we promised again...
I like travelling in the world by myself before.
After I met DAVID on March in 2012, I became to love travelling with DAVID so much.
To travel by myself is lots of fun & many discover inside through the time of being myself.
Not only sightseeing but also to feel something inside special are my pleasure in travelling.
I became to like Thailand a lot after first travel there & I met DAVID for the first time.
We love there & lots of nature and nice people in the country.
Beyond the nationalities , David & I can become so closer with strangers after a little conversation.
Thailand always attract us to visit again & again.
A week ago, DAVID suddenly suggested me to go to Thailand , I don't know why, but he strongly felt it.
I decided to go Thailand next spring to visit Vipassana meditation center & to stay at favorite place in Chaing Mai.
And it looks like a invisible energy to facilitate me to visit Thailand again...
Thailand is a special country for us, and it has a great & wonderful energy to attract us.
A few days ago, DAVID met a woman who will visit Thailand for the first time soon with her family.
He advised her about Thailand , of course he never knew her at all, to advise & suggest for her with kindness.
And her husband wants to talk to DAVID about their travel in Thailand soon to know some information.
Just a common favorite place to travel, Thailand, David & they became closer suddenly and they are going to visit tonight.
Thailand has something great attraction, we can feel.
After their travel, we will see together to talk about many things about Thailand, I guess.
To have common interest of Thailand, David & I can get closer with strangers easily...
I am so happy that some people like Thailand like we do.
And I am very exciting to visit Thailand again.
Next time , it's my travel alone without DAVID, but it will be so wonderful travel...for sure!
Without DAVID, I can feel his love at any place every day.
And his guide to this travel will bring me something special fortunately...
We need to be patient to being apart from each other for a while to get my VISA to live in the U.S.A next year.
But we will not be sad but enjoy this time how to satisfy our each life to connect our marriage life together soon!
How is your plan in the new year soon??
I hope you can have a nice plan with pleasure and enjoy your December in 2013!
Author:Masuda Keiko (増田佳子)
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