Sometimes David and I had a little misunderstanding each other.
But we don't want to keep bad feeling each other because it is the waste of life time to keep bad mood.
And I tried to think how to repeat that situation never again with generosity and kind heart.
I know that David loves me very much and I love him, too.
Sometimes we didn't have exactly same thinking to do something and it was not perfect thing to do each other.
But I don't want to expect him too much and just I tried to think that what situation can make him happy anyway.
So we handled our bad situation with honest communication and frank talking later.
Sometimes we had a tough time to misunderstand each other but we overcame to the situation with love.
It is our marriage life to handle any situation with honesty and generosity.
To live with David is not easy but it is my lesson of life to understand him more and more.
And also David always tries to adjust my thinking, so I want to adjust his thinking as much as possible.
Anyway, all marriage couples are not perfect to have a happy day every single day.
But love can overcome anything with each love and cooperation, I believe...^^
Today, I tried to participate in ESL (English Second Language) class at a library for the first time.
I found a information about the class at a different library before and I wanted to try someday to improve my English.
All classes are free to drop in and I wanted try today suddenly.
I went to the class for the first time and we started to introduce self each other at the begging.
And then we picked a card which connected a question to ask something,
Each card has a different question and I have a card to ask me, "Who am I?".
So I thought a little to introduce myself why I was here in the class today.
And I talked about my life after I met David and got married to moved in Seattle about 5 years ago.
Also I told what I was doing in Japan and I could tell myself a little for everyone.
Many people has a different situation to move in the U.S.A. and we wanted to improve speaking English each other.
It was nice time to share each life and talking in 90 minutes and I really enjoyed this class today.
It was my first class to experience the ESL class and I wanted to keep trying this class from now on.
Also I started to teach Japanese to American at a sushi restaurant every Sunday and I learned how all students feel to learn 2nd language.
So I want to improve my English and my teaching to the customers of the sushi restaurant by doing my best.
Anyway, it was a wonderful time to try new challenge for me today.^^
David is my English teacher, too, so I want to learn English every day through our daily conversation from now on...
Today I had a meeting of my Japanese class in downtown Seattle and David came to pick me up after his work as usual.
But he didn't look happy with smile in this afternoon then, so I wonder what happened to him.
On the way to our home in his car from downtown Seattle, I asked him what happened.
He didn't want to start talking his feeling and thinking but I just wait to his timing to talk to me.
Finally David started to talk what happened to him little by little, and I understood how he struggled a relationship with his colleague of his work.
I just tried to talk in equal position and I suggested him to be flexible and open his heart for everyone.
For David, it sounded not easy but I believe that he will overcome it by his generosity and kind heart.
So just I kept talking to him with patience and tender mind but his smile didn't come back soon.
But I trust his ability to be flexible more than before.
I just pray for him that he will be able to be more flexible for himself to set his heart free.
And I just want him smile from the bottom of heart.
He will face on this issue of his relationship with his colleague tomorrow again, so just I pray for him to handle his generous heart anyhow.^^
To work with many colleagues must be tough for David sometimes, because he is too smart to feel other's thinking and feeling well.
So his sensitive and sharp mind let him overthink sometimes, so I want him not to think too much to care of his mind at first.^^
From last month, I felt a little hurt around my right side of rib cage area somehow.
I thought that I tried to do Yoga posture of a fitness club before and it caused the pain.
When I twisted my body, I felt strong pain but I can walk and move carefully.
Sometimes David tried to hug me tightly and his arms hurt my hurt rib cage a little.
David told me that I had better not to do Yoga class too much to recover my body.
And I followed his advice today and I skipped a Yoga class today and it was good for me.
I did my Yoga at home carefully and I focus on my body deeply about the painful area.
So I felt much better today and I went to walk after rain stopped in this morning.
I like to have Yoga class of a fitness club but I need to be careful of my body's reaction.
So I try to care lf my body as much as possible at first and I want to recover my body without pain anymore.
This pain is massage from my body to concern of my body's sensations.
So I just appreciate with David's advice not to take a Yoga class today and I need to care of my body more than before.
I hope that my body will be better tomorrow than today and it will disappear the pain day by day.
It will take more days to recover completely, so I want to care of my body's change, anyway...^^
David got our free member card of big fitness club from his working company last summer.
A few days ago, I walked there by myself to get a schedule of YOGA class at nearest fitness club in our neighborhood.
Today, we decided to go there for the first time together.
And we took part in a YOGA class together in this morning.
It was only 1 hour class and 20 people were there.
The YOGA class was gentle and easy for me and we really enjoyed doing YOGA together.
David really wanted to swim and have a jacuzzi and we went to each rocker room.
But all rocker room have no key so I wanted to keep my valuables to David's car.
So I waited in front of the glass of the jacuzzi bath tab and I asked him to give his car key by my silent gesture.
And he gave me his car key and I put my valuables into his car and I left my clothes in my bag in a rocker.
I wanted to enjoy jacuzzi with David so I went to the same rocker but all my staffs gone!!!
Unbelievable, someone stole my staffs in a few minutes while I left!!
Some people use rockers by their own key but some people left their staffs without keys.
So I checked all empty rockers one by one for 3 times.
But I couldn't find all my staffs, so I gave up to find it and I went to David in a jagguzzi to talk about my happening.
I wanted him to enjoy jaguzzi time but my happening destroyed, so I am very sorry for him.
We reported my happening to a manager of the fitness club and just I pray to appear my all staffs.
But David told me that this is not JAPAN but America, so all my staffs would not appear unfortunately.
I almost gave up to see all my staffs because we did nothing wrong, it looked like an unfortunate accident.
So I don't blame the fitness club's security anymore and I change my mind that my staffs went to someone who really needs like a donation.
We don't think about my unfortunate happening anymore because it waste of our precious life time.
Communication to others is important how to treat others by changing each feeling and thought, I think.
We have different way of thinking & feeling and we need to understand each difference during communication.
Sometimes we can feel similar feeling & thought but each thinking is not exactly same, I think.
So we need to try not to misunderstanding each other during each communication.
But sometimes we misunderstand each other how other people think and feel by own thinking.
So I think that we need to try keeping effort to understand each other.
Trying to keep effort to understand each other is a kind of love and compassion for others, I think.
So sometimes I want to keep my silence without talking too much not to make any misunderstanding for others.
To keep silence can let me rethink how I am thinking right now before I say something to others.
To say something to others has a energy of words.
And all vibration of words can influence to myself and others when we communicate each other.
How do you think??
I hope that your communication is for the direction of love and truth by using your any words for others as much as possible.
Without love and truth, communication doesn't have any meaning to me at all.
Have a wonderful communication in your life with positive feeling!^^
After last month, David started to a new job and his working schedule is very irregular shit every day.
Sometimes he works at night until 23:00 and sometimes he works from early morning from 5 a.m.
He wants to work at morning shift as much as possible and he asked a manager who makes all colleagues' working schedule.
But at the begging of working in a few month, he needs to learn how all working schedule work as a team.
So he has no choice to work at different schedule every day so I want him to sleep as much as possible.
He went to work from 6:00 a.m and he woke up after 5:00 a.m to get ready in this morning.
And I wanted to see him off so I woke up as early as he does.
Outside it was dark still at the time when he went to work by his car but he will finish working at 14:00 in this afternoon.
So he could usu his private time after early morning schedule and it looks good for him.
If he works at night, his working time starts 15:00 or 16:00 so it was not good our body to sleep late at night.
We want to sleep before 22:00 every night but sometimes it is impossible.
Because our sleeping time is very important to keep our healthy body & mind every day, I believe.
We eat healthy organic foods but sleeping at night is essential part of our healthy life, anyway.
So today, I want David to sleep enough at night after his work as long as possible...
Today it will be nice weather with blue sky & sunshine and we will enjoy warm weather in this afternoon together.
To wake up early is a little hard for us but we can use enough time after all, so we can use our 1 day effectively...
We are human beings so we can feel, eat, listen, touch, smell, talkand watch some objects around world.
So we can feel pain or pleasure through our body sensation fortunately.
If we were born as a wild flower, we cannot move, talk, listen, smell, feel, eat something around this world.
All nature is born as it is with wild sensation & intuition and they have never complain about their whole life.
In nature, I can feel so much energy inside of my mind naturally without words & thinking...just I can feel somthing in my mind.
I think that our spirit is very similar with all nature around us.
And just we have body and sensation with brain, so we tend to think too much sometimes in our mind.
After we born as a human beings, many things make me think and feel in my life.
Sometimes our mind & thoughts can disturb my way of thinking to live in this world.
But we cannot stop thinking every day.
If I were a wild flower, I can live easily and more simply than myself now.
But I am thankful for my life as human beings these days.
How is your life now??
Are you satisfied with your life as you wish when you were young??
What is your purpose in your life??
What can make you feel happy & content around you recently??
The end of last month, I have experienced so many lost & grief unexpectedly but now I can feel happiness of my life with DAVID.
And how to live with flexible mind is my important part of life because everything is changing every single moment.
"EVERYTHING is changing" as VIPASSANA MEDITATION teaching says, the truth of this world is that's all, I believe.
And maybe "DEATH" and "LIVE" are changing, too...so it means that between death & live is not existence because everything around us is changing even death and live, too.
So we can release all our worries and fears in our lives and just we need to enjoy TODAY's Blessing around us, I think.
Life is too short so we need to move on every single day as we hope.
Our future will decide our way of thinking so I want to think anything as positive as I wish...and it will make happen actually sooner or later, I know.
Today is the final day of WINTER in JAPAN and tomorrow will be new begging of spring.
Let's enjoy this end of winter season today to connect new spring with gratitude, shall we???^^
David really love to talk.
And sometimes he starts to talk to strangers in a shop or on the street suddenly.
I like to talk but not so often as David talk.
David tends to figure out of his thinking through his talking and I tend to think inside of myself more than talking to others.
Sometimes we can communicate each other well and sometimes we keep silence until we want to start talking.
But to communicate each other is very important to understand how we feel and think at that time.
So we try to communicate each other well as we can do.
Sometimes any words can not express my thinking because my emotion & thinking has not enough words to talk.
So I tend to wait until I can find better way of talking to express my heart better than now.
How is your communication??
Are you good at talking to express your heart??
Sometimes talking can make some misunderstanding each other because we have different way of taking some words to self.
But not to communicate can make more misunderstanding than less talking, so David & I try to communicate as much as possible not to misunderstand.
To be honest is essential to tell how I am thinking and how I feel to others, and it is the best way to understand others.
Sometimes to keep silence is good time to make our mind in peace and to figure out what I am thinking clearly.
To meditate can make us think & talk proper way with peace, I feel these days.
I hope that your communication can make someone's understanding more than before without misunderstanding.
I wish that your TODAY will be pleasure to communicate with others as well as possible!!^^
Cooking time can make me happy because I can use my intuition with my creative idea every day.
By David's great effort, I can cook all meals with delicious organic fruits & vegetable.
Usually, I don't cook all organic foods by too much arrangements.
Because all organic foods has so much taste naturally and I don't need to add so much flavor & seasoning.
How delicious when I just baked or steamed all organic vegetables without seasoning.
Sometimes I use a little salt to pull out of organic vegetables' sweetness inside so just I can use my imagination of arrangement & mixture.
David really love my cooking meals and I am so happy that he always gives me delicious smile when he eat my meals..
In return his effort and smile, I want to cook him today more than yesterday.
Every day I can enjoy my cooking to adjust our body & mind condition.
To eat every meal is like a routine but it can influence us a lot after long days.
Recently, David looks so happy when we eat together our dinner with smile & nice conversation.
Cooking is my expression of love and sharing with our dinner can make our love & relationship become better & deeper than ever.
To cooking with my creative idea is like an experimental way for me.
So only 1 time, I can cook my taste and it will never happen because I am changing every single day.
That's why we can enjoy our TODAY's dinner together as the first & final taste which we can experience in our marriage life.
Anyway to use my creativity for my cooking is my pleasure.
And I can get David's honest & pure impression of my cooking, so I want to cook better than before day by day.
I am so happy that I can cook organic foods as usual as my normal meals in Seattle.
And I am so thankful for David's great understanding how precious our meals can make our body & mind with love & smile.
I wish that your every meal can make you happy as much as possible to make your tomorrow's energy.
And I don't want to waste of all organic foods so I use all parts of organic vegetable as much as possible.^^
Author:Masuda Keiko (増田佳子)
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