I cried a a lot again and heart needed to purify by tears after my DETOX, I can tell.
I didn't meant to cry when I started to talk my feeling & thinking to David but tears couldn't stop at all.
So I just kept talking with tears until I felt myself enough and I felt so tired after too much tears.
Just David kept talking all my heart and I felt so clear mind after I cried a lot.
So I am so thankful for his love and existence that he just accepted my feeling and gave a huge hug with tenderness.
I wanted to lie down for a while because I felt so much tired to keep talking.
But after that, I felt my heart purified inside and nice energy with warmth of peace.
Today it is very wonderful weather with sunshine & blue sky after many days of raining.
And I could feel so much love of SUN and this universe and GOD looks telling me "KEEP GOING as I am" with sunshine.
I just could feel benevolence in my mind and David is just watching & protecting me with generous love.
I felt so down deeply for last a few weeks but now I feel much much better than before.
After FULL MOON DETOX, I kept thinking how to live and how I really want to be in my life.
Some part of my thinking was so tough that I need to face on it without ignorance of my heart honestly & frankly.
And then, David & I went to walk together close to Edmonds beach together and I felt so peace inside naturally.
With great sunshine & David's love, I can feel better myself than ever before, and I felt so much gratitude for everything even something was so tough for me.
All my experience of life can make me so much leaning & lesson how much I need to be AS I AM with peace.
With YOGA & MEDITATION, I can feel much peace inside of my heart and they keep me going forward with love inside.
How is your today??
How do you feel yourself today??
I wish that you are yourself with peace & smile today as YOU ARE at anytime!!^
Today will be the final day of my Full Moon DETOX, but I feel that I want to keep my DETOX more 2 days from yesterday.
Because I need to purify my mind more than I planned the day before Full Moon day.
Yesterday, i cried a lot again and it might be influence of FULL MOON but I could feel much better today than yesterday,
Today i can feel so much gratitude and love for everything around me and I need my DETOX for this timing, for sure.
It is raining today and rain will keep all day long but I want to feel this calm & silence of rain with peaceful mind through DETOX.
I was in the middle of storm of my life but already it looks going away from inside of my heart.
The depth of my heart was so sensitive that I have no idea how to handle it by my heart.
But every day, I keep my YOGA & Meditation and today I can feel much better myself with peace & stable mind.
And I want to be tougher KEIKO as I am than before and I need to be stronger than yesterday.
Day by day, my heart will grow up through my life experience so I am learning something every single day.
Yesterday is already my past of life.
And I am alive today to continue my tomorrow so I want to focus on my day with my best...
So my new heart after DETOX will give me a wonderful future with hope!
How is your day today??
I wish that your today will be wonderful with hope & smile today after FULL MOON!^^
After my 1 week Detox last week, David & I had a great Sunday together.
With true heart, we could communicate each other and I could cry with my honest feeling to purify my mind both yesterday and in this morning.
When he saw my teas, he started to worry about me because he felt something wrong with me or David.
So I told him, "My tears mean not to blame you or to make you sorry for me at all,, so don't worry too much~
I felt that my tears is a symbol of sweat or heat from my heart & mind to pull out side naturally.
And my tears can purify myself clearer than before and nothing matter with David's words or attitude for me.
After my 1 week Detox, my mind became so much clearer and purer than before and I can feel my sensitive sensation.
Sometimes my influence of change by Detox gave David so much impact and surprise.
But always he watches and protects me with generosity & kindness and I am so thankful for everything he did & does.
Through my Detox, I realized so many things in my mind and it became clearer than before day by day.
And I have a lot of work at home to get ready for Thanksgiving in the middle of this week.
So I enjoy our ready with pleasure and I am so glad to cook for David every day after his great work every day.
Anyway now, I enjoy my cooking BEST in my life and I want David to enjoy my daily dinner with me to energize our body, mind & spirit.
To cherish daily layer of our marriage life will let us realize how we are Blessed so much with LOVE!
To love each other and to grow our love every day are our learning of life.
At any moment, we are in the middle of process of our spirituality of life for everyone.
So just I do my best as I am today and I want to be better myself day by day for our growth of spirituality.^^
Today we could sleep after Saturday's feast meal for David & me.
Especially for me, it was a big start to eat usual meal with David to adjust my recovery from 1 week Detox this week.
After 1 week Detox, my internal organs became so pure like a baby that I need to be careful how & what to eat day by day.
During recovery period, I found every different reaction from my body & mind and I observe myself with foods and body very carefully.
But after 1 week of my Detox and also David's hard work, I want to enjoy our Saturday meals together.
Usually, at the end of week, I cooked original curry for us.
But to take in spicy foods are too much stimulation and influence of my body.
So today, I made special mild curry with organic vegetables as my body need to eat & to adjust my recovery period after 1 day Detox.
I learned about "AYRVEDA" cooking a little and all spices can be our body influence as a medicine.
So I arranged my special curry as a pleasure & fun meal with David last night.
To cook all ingredients is so much fun for me, as I was thinking of texture of solids, seasoning and some kind of spices to combine well with harmony.
Finally I could make great feast for both of us and we started to eat by only right hand each other.
To eat right hand only is INDIA style and we love to enjoy this wild style of eating so much.
This meal made our body for tomorrow's our energy & body in this morning
We could wake up with smile & pleasure after nice sleep & special curry today.
I can feel that everything is getting better day by day to make our body with delicious meal together.
Not only for our body but also for our love & relationship, I want to enjoy this recovery period every single day.^^
Today is the 1st day after my 1 week Detox.
Last night, I could eat little more than day before.
But my stomach said, "Enough" to me so soon that I just followed my body's voice.
I tried to chew all solids foods to start to eat organic foods to facilitate my internal organs digestion.
And my body could feel so much of energy of foods to take in slowly.
But I could so much energy inside with a little foods and I couldn't feel sleep at all at my usual sleeping time.
So I lied on the HUTON to take my body rest and I was waiting the body's need to sleep.
And finally I felt sleepy and I started to sleep soon.
But I woke up at 4:30 a.m. to pee and I was so surprised that David already to wake up in this morning.
Too early for DAVID to wake up so we started to talk for a while in the HUTON.
And again we could started to sleep again naturally.
I felt so much sleepy at that time and I sleep for a few hours more.
After eating solids foods needed to take a rest for internal organs more than my DETOX of 1 week.
But this recovery days, from today to another a few days, recovery period from my 1 week Detox.
So sometimes I feel my body's change & sensation inside so I need to follow it day by day...
Anyway now I feel so much sleepy so I need to take a nap for a while today.
For me, today looks to pass so slowly than usual and my body's gear looks slow, too.
Today is Saturday with clouds and sometimes it was raining.
I enjoy the sound of rain and feel today's changeable weather with calm & peaceful mind somehow....^^
Today is the final day of my 1 week of Detox.
Last 6 days, I have experienced so many things in my body & mind through my DETOX.
Detox is not only DETOX for my body but also my mind to clear myself inside naturally.
I realized how wonderful I am to remind of loving myself and caring of minute sensation.
About 7 months ago, I lost my (grandmother) Dad's MOM in Japan.
I wanted to go to see her with David before she passed away suddenly but I decided not to go back to Japan.
Also her funeral service, I couldn't take part in with David.
I decided to be with David to support him instead going back to Japan.
I have no regret at all but my heart was so hurt by sorrow & grief after I lost my dear Grandmother in Japan.
After that, little be little, I felt bad to myself day by day with unconsciousness.
Through I realized what happened to my body & mind last 7 months which I need to do my DETOX at this timing.
Now I understand about of myself how I became KEIKO which I don't want to be.
I wanted to change something by myself to overcome my past & deep grief behind of my feeling of surface.
Through Detox, I found myself again and again how I really want to be from now on.
Now I am so thankful for my Grandmother because she gave me this life on the earth.
And I have never looked back to my past whatever I did or didn't anything by my decision.
Because past cannot change now but I can change myself from this moment.
To change myself now can make my past by pure & positive observation.
I just feel so much gratitude of myself surround me on the earth.
And I just want to contribute something in this world to share with my skills to let someone's happy more than before.
Anyway, today is the final day of my 1 week DETOX and I am going to adjust my daily diet little by little to be better KEIKO.
I can feel that I can be myself who I really want to be from the bottom of my heart.
I am very thankful for David's support & love to be with me all the time with great love.
And I really appreciate with my life to make KEIKO be born on this earth....for all of my connection of this universe...^^
Last night, I felt so much sleep because the lack of sleeping time 2 nights ago.
Before David & I sleep, we enjoyed dinner together with great conversation & smile.
Of course I could have only a small organic vegetables with him.
I felt so much comfortable with a little amount of foods.
Because I started to take a little salt after 4 days' DETOX last night.
My body feels the influence of taking salt & solid foods again.
And lots of great relaxation with deep sleep gave me so great energy in this morning.
From today & tomorrow, I will start to eat more than before to adjust my normal meal day by day to finish my 1 week Detox.
So I want to enjoy how my body feels to enjoy dinner with David.
I enjoy cooking every day to make David' body' mind happy as my Detox's flow.
Anyway I am so Blessed with my everything around me now and I am so grateful for it...^^
Today is 5th day of my 1 week Detox.
Yesterday was the main DETOX day without no solid foods.
I took only vegetable & fruits juice and I felt so much clear of my mind & body.
But I couldn't sleep well last night because my mind became so sharp that many thinking & feeling came out before sleep.
So today, I woke up with a little headache and I did my YOGA more carefully & longer than usual.
And I could feel better and I made a recovery soup to make my body started to adjust to my normal meals from today.
But after 4 days DETOX, my body doesn't feel so much solid foods.
So I took a little organic fruits and piece of vegetable as my body wants & needs.
My body could feel so much energy after some solid foods came into my body after 4 days' DETOX.
And I felt so much content with a little foods & deep gratitude around me now.
More 2 days will keep my detox to finish my 1 week DETOX.
And this DETOX can give me so much energy & power with benevolence & Blessing, I can feel day by day...
Just David seemed so surprised that my DETOX made me so change by my everything.
I appreciate with David's support & love for me anyway...
Yesterday was full moon day.
So I did my Detox as usual.
At this time, just I eat organic fruits in a day.
I ate a organic pear and an apple...that is my all meal in a day for fruits DETOX.
During daytime, I drunk organic lime hot water and I felt so much nice in both body & mind.
And my mind became clear & pure and I could feel wonderful time through my DETOX day.
After dinner time, David suggested me to watch sunset at Edmonds beach.
Before he suggested it to me, I wanted to see sunset at the same time.
We felt the exactly same thing so we had a sweet time together.
Today's Full MOON Detox was a nice timing for me.
Just the half of this year has started...so David & I talked a lot for our marriage life with LOVE.
To share with each heart honestly & frankly with beautiful sunset was really great time for us.
Also my Full MOON Detox could make me so amazing and I really like my routine of Detox at both full moon & new moon in a month.
But I am so sorry for DAVID that I couldn't eat our meals together in his holiday yesterday.
David wants to share all meals together...I am very very sorry, DAVID!
Today is the 7th day of my Detox from last week.
Last night, I felt so much sleepy by influence of my DETOX.
So I was so sorry that I couldn't have enough time to talk to David before sleep after his dinnner.
But strong & deep sleeping last night was just my need of body so I follwed it naturally.
To let myself pull over the depth of sleeping can feel myself be better than before.
Little by little, I adjust my Detox with eating a little oraganic vegetable & fruits.
After I week of my Detox, I can feel so much better than before... A LOT!
From 2008 to 2011, I did my Detox in India about 3 weeks in some ashram.
In a year, I need to do my Detox enough to be able to feel myself pure & clear afte my e\xpreience & leaning there.
From 2012 to 2014, I did my Detox for 1 week at my parents' home with my orignial program.
It was very effective for me to purify myself & to focus on myself better.
But after I got married to David, last December I started to ilve with David in Seattle.
And every day, I cooked his meal with pleasure & joy.
Also I wanted to enjoy eating delicious organig foods with him so my Detox timing lost.
But I really felt to need my Detox in this month, so I asked David to understand my thought & decision of DETOX before I start last week.
He completely understood my opinion and cooperated with my Detox.
Of course, I keep cooking for him every day with pleasure but I am so sorry without sharing his meals together during my Detox.
After the end of Detox, I promised to him to enjoy our meals together again...so I really appreciate with his generousity.
Anyway, I will adjust my Detox program for myself for next 2 weeks unil the end of May.
I am very looking forard the influence & effect of my Detox later.
Author:Masuda Keiko (増田佳子)
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