Today is David's birthday and I gave my card for him after he woke up because I wrote it yesterday to surprise him.
In the midnight, after the date changed, I told David, "Happy Birthday!" when I woke up to pee.
He was almost sleeping at that time but he understood what I said to him.
And after he woke up today, he read my birthday card and he looked so happy to read my message.
I am so happy to know that that his new age from today is just a new page of his long life from now on.
For him, before his birthday seems a little sensitive but today he looks calm and stable than before.
He went to take a walk with his close friend and I hope that they will have a nice time together even in snow today.
I want to surprise him by my cooking at home so I will do my best for him at home now...
I don't know how big someone has a meaning of birthday but for me, I don't feel so much special about birthday.
To thank for my life is a little special meaning for my birthday, not to be celebrated so many presents or many happy messages for me are not my favorite way to have my birthday.
But most people want to celebrate with happy birthday message or many presents to feel self special.
If we can celebrate every day as special as today is, we don't need too much feel special for birthday, I think.
Anyway, I am so thankful for David's existence and I am very lucky to be with David not only today's his birthday but also every single day.
How is your way of thinking of birthday??
Am I strange of thinking about birthday???^^
Suddenly tears came out of my eye a lot after our meditation time in this morning.
Last few days, I was thinking a lot in my mind and something needs to pull out of my heart with tears.
After our meditation as our usual routine, David and I sat down to share with each feeling and thinking.
He looked worrying about me and I said to him with my honest feeling and naturally my tears flew down to my face.
David told me so much great words to accept my feeling and to encourage my thought with love and strong passion.
I needed to pull out of my feeling honestly and frankly and I needed to cry anyway, and I felt clearer than before after that.
David needed to leave home for work and he always treated me so well with love and compassion.
His love is always tender and gentle and it covered my feeling with warm & comfortable atmosphere.
And I could smile for him before he left home because I could feel better than before.
I needed to express how I feel today with tears and David's love let my tears go away naturally.
Tears can make my heart purify and energize little by little and just I want to start my house working.
Today is very beautiful day with sunshine and blue sky and I have no bad feeling in my heart anymore.
With David's love and my tough heart, we can survive this world with love from now on.
We need each love and support and we are very great team to live together, I realized how much we love each other.
Anyway I am so thankful for David's love always that I can laugh and cry anytime with his love & generous heart as much as I want.^^
Today I felt so much gratitude & LOVE inside of my heart from my begging of day.
David looks something different from yesterday but we could start TODAY with Blessing.
After our meditation & walking, I felt something wonderful feeling inside of myself naturally.
Yesterday, it was a huge happening to us to support a beautiful woman.
We had a great time together and David & I could feel so much energy through our experiences last night.
Also today, the great energy is inside our heart and we shared with out thinking & feeling each other a lot.
Anyway LOVE is GREAT and it is everything for us to survive this world!!
And we realized how great we could support someone who needs our energy of LOVE.
We just want to love each other and to others with SMILE & benevolence as they are.
Everyone has a great spirit inside and we can feel something each other to commit each life.
And GOD will guide us with LOVE always and as far as we love each other, everything will happen better than before...I believe!
GOD is just watching and protecting us above us and our spirits of LOVE connect with GOD, I feel.
How is your LOVE today??
I wish that your heart can feel your LOVE inside with peace & smile today!^^
Today we got up after long & enough sleeping as usual.
But something wrong with David, I can feel his attitude & behavior.
I might do something wrong to him unconsciously so I asked him, but his smile didn't come back to me as usual.
So we started to meditate as our routine as usual and we took a walk after long rainy night.
The sky was so beautiful with clear air that I am so happy to walk with David.
But his smile didn't come back still when we started to walk so I just tried to wait his recovery naturally....
And we started to talk in the middle of course our walking course and David started to talk little by little.
His talking is nice symptom and I just focused on listening to his any words carefully.
Little by little, his thought & feeling came out with his words and he became better than before.
His cloudy mind cannot remove all but little by little his talking became active & positive, so I felt relived to know that.
His silence is not good sign which he started to think deeply A LOT and his route of thinking let himself in a circle around and around.
But finally he became much better than in this morning and I am happy to know that.
Before his working time, I want him to have nice feeling as much as possible to start NEW DAY as a fresh start.
And we shared with each thought & feeling little by little and his smile finally came back to me.
His shiny smile is always my favorite part of David and his smile can make me happy.
But we can not smile all the time and I want to love & support him how his mind is as DAVID is.
Sometimes I can not feel to smile to David but his love is always flowing to my heart with tenderness & kindness.
To love each other is supporting each other at any situation.
Anyway it was very cold today but our love is always shining like a SUN, we can believe.
Today is just before day of our 4th marriage anniversary.
I wish that tomorrow will be wonderful to celebrate our wedding anniversary on David's holiday.
And our marriage life will keep going forward with love based on TRUST & TRUTH as long as possible....^^
What is love??
It is invisible and untouchable but we can feel when someone special love us, can't we??
Love is something feel inside of each other who love deeply & strongly.
And whenever David smiles on me, I can feel his LOVE a lot.
Because his eyes shine with lovely smile & generous attitude for me.
And when I can let David smile, I can feel my love for David inside of myself.
To love someone is not easy way, because sometimes we can feel each difference.
But to communicate each other honestly & frankly, we can understand each differences more to ourselves closer than before.
So David & I have some struggles in our past marriage life (about only less than 4 years!).
But after we talked a lot each other, everything was necessary to make our relationship became better.
And it was a tiny point when we had a tough time in the past and NOW we can love each other more than before, FOR SURE.
To give up loving each other easy but we cannot help loving each other....
So keep loving David means to understand not only him but also my LOVE for him, I can feel.
And to support his weakness & struggles is my pleasure and in return, he love me when I feel struggling inside of myself.
We realized how BEST TEAM we are to survive in this world these days.
And to support each other is our LOVE and our great strength of LOVE.
I don't know WHAT IS LOVE actually but our marriage life is the way of our LOVE, for sure!
I wish that my precious friends & family in this world can love someone special every day with smile & BLESSING as much as possible.
LOVE is wonderful and has GREAT power to live TODAY.
I have never felt like this LOVE in my life before I met DAVID, so I truly believe that THIS IS MY LOVE....,sounds good??
I hope that your life is filled with LOVE and your life will go forward with LOVE & SMILE every single day!^^
Today is my birthday.
From this morning, David said to me, "Happy birthday, KEIKO!" with lot of love.
And David brought me our favorite organic Sushi restaurant to celebrate my birthday for dinner.
We really enjoyed eating delicious meals together.
He always treated me with lots of love and generous today.
And I am so grateful for his kindness & deep love for me all day long.
I feel that 1 year ha passed so quickly with David that I cannot believe it!
And I appreciate with David love every single day.
I realized how happy I am with David not only today but also every day with his love for me.
And I am very very lucky wife to be with David every single day...
To be celebrate by David for my birthday is not familiar with me at all.
To be born today is for me to appreciate with my birth on this earth not to be just celebrated.
Anyway I am very thankful for David that he did for me today....A LOT!
I felt so much love from David today and I am very very grateful for his existence itself today...^^
Sometimes David and I had a bad feeling each other with misunderstanding.
But our little fight would not long so much.
Each other, we realized how bad to each self and we started to apologize each other soon.
To make ourselves involve in such a bad feeling can not let us happy at all.
So we can recover each feeling by each self and we can get better than before.
I really love our relationship like this.
To feel each other bad is not good at all for each other.
And we love each other even we feel bad feeling each other.
After a little fight, we can love each other more than before.
So we can fix our each bad poing of own so we can love each other more and more from now on...^^
Last night, we started to watch a movie together.
But little by little, I felt sleepy during the movie.
So I asked David to give me some time sleep and we started to sleep for a while.
After about 30 minutes sleeping together, we woke up together and started to watch the movie again.
Sometimes we felt sleepy during watching movie each other and we took a nap time in the middle of a movie.
David always gives me time to take a nap and I am very thankful his kindness & generosity.
I am very lucky to get such a wonderful husband.
And I really appreciate with his love every day anyway...^^
Yesterday, David bought my new mobile phone suddenly.
I appreciate with his love and we had a fun time to set our each phone up together last night.
And today, David went to watch his favorite football teams' game with his friend.
I sent a message to him during his outgoing and he gave me a call instead of his reply.
We talked a little for the first time to use each new mobile phone.
And he sounded so happy that we could contact each other easily to use mobile phone.
I didn't feel that I don't need to use mobile phone but actually new mobile phone is very useful for both of us.
I sent my parents to let them know my new mobile phone number by e-mail.
In Japan, I used old type of mobile phone but now I started to use smart phone for the first time.
David and I haven't get to used to using a new smart phone each other but we have fun time to use it together.
Anyway I am so grateful for David's love that we can make use each new mobile phone from now.
Thank you so much, DAVID!!^^
Yesterday, David lost his mobile phone's charge.
And today he went to get a new mobile phone by himself.
He bought his new mobile phone and my new mobile phone, too.
I said to him, "I don't need new mobile phone at all. Because I don't use it so often." before.
But he wanted me to get a new mobile phone whenever we can contact each other.
And today, he thought that this is the best timing to get new mobile phone together.
Our new mobile phone must have cost a lot but I could understand his love.
We set out new mobile phones up together and it was very fun.
From now on, we can contact each other and it will be very useful for both of us.
I am really really appreciate with his love so much anyway...^^
Author:Masuda Keiko (増田佳子)
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